Guess one of the gifts that god gave Us in this life was not to know what the future holds, Life becomes so much more colorful that way...
But i cant help but feel so lost sometimes, cant help but feel like a stranger in my own life...
Wondering if I'm on the right track, if I'm doing even an inch of what I'm suppose to be doing...
Cant help but feel helpless at the best of times...
guess fear rules sometimes, yeah yeah i know... for i have not been given a spirit of fear but a spirit of a sound mind, of discipline right? yeah i know...
Cant help but feel a lot of things... cant help but want to fall in love, to find "the one", to have kids, to see life from another person's viewpoint...
there is so much more to life and yet we take it for granted... short as it is...
Sometimes i want to cry thinking about the "uncertainty"...
Cant help but feel that everyone who passes on, still had plans, still wanted to do so much more but never got the chance...
cant help but wonder if it were my day today, would heaven rejoice, or would they all look away, maybe at the waste that became my life, maybe at the death of the unseen potential...
I'm sitting in this very chair and cant help but wonder if there isn't so much more to this life than this.... God if you can hear Me, help Me to live, help Me to become every inch and ounce of what you wanted Me to be, help Me to number my days... help me to not become what i am now... Help me to be as you intended Me to be...
This journey is not easy, sometimes it gets so hard, but I need to believe there is more to what I'm doing. I need to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that "I AM" ....
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